I would have to say that the past 3 weeks have been quite humbling. I am now almost in my 4th week of seminary and I am overcome by just how much this "little child" of God has to learn. As I was reflecting this evening, while writing a paper for my spiritual formation class, I began to think back on my past, the story of my life. At times I feel so inadequate, so little, so unworthy to be where I am today. Most definitely I should when compared to the Lord, Jesus Christ. The Lord has been so compassionate and gracious to me, so faithful in maintaining his love for me even when I don't deserve it. It's for sure all about His grace. As I was sitting in my Christian Philosophy class the other day, I just had a moment of aweness about the Lord's amazing grace. Who am I that He would choose me to use for His Kingdom? Who am I with all my imperfections that I should stand before Him? As much as I struggle to forgive myself for my past, why is it that He remembers it no more? Why is it that He threw my sins into the deepness and vastness of the ocean, to be forever lost? As far as from the east is to the west, my transgressions are forgiven. Why do I struggle with forgiveness? Forgiveness with myself and all of my many past mistakes. It's amazing just how much my life has been transformed by the Lord's amazing grace. As I reflect on my less-than-perfect life, I still see so many flaws, so much imperfectness, and definitely so much room for growth but I can now see the light of God's sovereign grace. I am learning what it means to forgive myself, let go, and embrace my story.
"who redeems your life from the pit and crowns you with love and compassion, who satisfies your desires with good things so that your youth is renewed like the eagles's." Psalm 103:4-5
(Christian Philosphy class... God written from 14 diff. countries)
Who am I? Thank you Abba, Father for your Spirit of sonship.
"For you did not receive a spirit that makes you a slave again to fear, but you received the Spirit of sonship. And by Him we cry, "Abba, Father." Romans 8:15
"Because you are sons, God sent the Spirit of His Son into our hearts, the Spirit who calls out, "Abba, Father." Galations 4:6
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